3months and a week or so until I have to say goodbye to the province that has been my home for the last 20 years, and say hello to "the windy city" better known as Cape Town. Sheesh, life just got real up in here.
I must admit I am not the most experienced mover, seeing as I have pretty much been living in the same complex for most of my life, so this was a pretty darn scary decision for me. It still is.
I made the decision to study my honours degree at UCT about a year ago, at a time when Durban just seemed very boring and I felt like I was stuck in a rut here. I think I visited Cape Town about five times last year, which made my friends here in Durbs really feel like they weren't that important to me. I am sorry about that guys, truly.
It's funny how things can change though.
This year I have discovered all the potential and awesomness ( can I say awesomness?) that this province has to offer, and in the process I have formed much closer relationships with my friends here as well as making a bunch of new friends whom I treasure a lot. In fact I even started thinking that maybe Cape Town wasn't such a good idea. Reality kicks in though and you realise you need to start making decisions not based solely on the moment but rather on what is best for your future, and, no matter what angle I looked at it in, Cape Town was the best place for me to get my honours degree and a job in the journalism field.
So here I find myself, not yet having received an acceptance letter from UCT, scouring for a digs to stay in, planning how I am going to transport everything I own without paying a gazillion rand for a moving van, and wondering how many visits to Durbs I can actually afford next year. Basically my mind is feeling very stressed at the moment, but through it all, God has given me such peace about this decision and I am confident that it's the right one.
As hard as it is, I think what I have realised is that you can't stay in the same place and have everything be exactly how it is now, for the rest of your life.Things change and people change. As cliched as that is, it's true. I have learnt to enjoy the moments I have going to Unit 11 gigs, hanging out with my friends here, feeling safe and comfortable and all the rest of it, but I know that everything has a season. So next year I will be building relationships with people in Cape Town, getting a job and working towards having a career ( I believe its called growing up). The great thing is that, thanks to our generations obsession with taking photos and videos, I will always have the memories of my life in Durbs - and who knows, maybe I'll be back here one day- and thanks to the advent of Social Media, the friendships I have formed will last a lifetime no matter where I am in the world.
I'm so excited for this new journey. Frikkin scared, but excited.
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